Life changing events

At The End Of The Night

So this blog is likely to be done in a few parts. Primarily because it is going to be really long and that is because it is about the biggest night of Vanessa's life. Up until now that very important label was attached to the first night I went to sincity at Club 23 and in some ways that may be a close rival to this evening but, in all honesty, I feel like last Wednesday was bigger. So what happened???

First of all the SO was going to be out of town for a family thing. This left me to all my trannyness for a couple of nights; Tues, Wed and Thurs, although I had to be out the door at 4:45 am on Friday so Thurs was a bit of a washout. Anyway, I knew of this well in advance and really began to wonder what I could do to make it special. One problem was that I had to work everyday so that put some limits on me. Plus I had to clean and sort out some house stuff that took time. Anyway, I have mentioned that I have come out as a tranny to a few very (supremely) special ladies over the last 2 years. What would have been the best case scenario for me was to do something wonderful for them. So....it just came to me that having a little soiree with appys and wine at my place would be fun. I asked the 3 girls what they thought and they were all able to come and thought it was a great idea. In the process of talking about it with them, I thought that it might be fun for them to wear false lashes if they haven't and also give them a chance to try on my wigs. I have about 20 now. They all seemed pretty excited about this. Now, this is really big for me, really big. Over the last 2 years I have gone out twice with women I know and I was in drag, but I have never been around a group of friends in drag. I cannot overemphasize just how much I have always dreamed of being able to be Vanessa with people I really like. To me, that was the ultimate goal of my tranny life, to allow myself to be who I REALLY am and hang out.

So then a few other things came up. I invited 2 other women who know about Vanessa and they were in. The other thing was I came out to 2 women who I really like and really wanted to attend. As I suspected, they were super cool and accepting. I have to admit that this was a pretty stressful thing for me b/c I have been betrayed so many times over my life that I almost expect it to happen. Anyway, so I got the appy's arranged, got a dessert, and all the stuff set up and then was ready for the big night. I was so nervous and anxious about the whole thing it dominated my thoughts for a few days before.

Eventually the big day arrived and I picked an outfit that I thought was a bit too dressy for the summery weather we have been having but I'm a girly girl when push comes to shove. So, a funny thing happened that almost ruined my chance to get ready. My cat went out and disappeared...I spent 1/2 an hour trying to find her and almost didn't have enough time to get ready. I had 45 minutes and it usually takes me about an hour. I got ready, got dressed and felt okay...not perfect but pretty good and it was 1 minute after the scheduled start time. Then I waited....5 minutes, 10 minutes and no-one. I was dying. The first guests arrived about 15 minutes late. One of the ladies who was one of the first guests is a woman who just absolutely knows how to say the very thing I am dying to hear. She sautered up and gave me a big hug and all was well. Oddly enough, I was so busy getting painted that I didn't have a chance to worry about the magnitude of the event that was to follow. The other guests arrived and we all got some bubbly and had appys for about 45 minutes. Then they all went to the bathroom and put on the false lashes. After this, we tried on wigs for about 1 hour. Eventually all the ladies sort of settled on a wig. After this we hung out and drank a bit more, chatted and then the ladies departed.

I tidied up and immediately noted that the dessert was sitting in the fridge still.

What I Looked Like Greeting The Guests

So, it is funny but a lot of the things that made the event so special to me were things that didn't happen. First and foremost, I didn't feel like a freak. I didn't ever notice someone looking at me like I was some sort of confusing puzzle. It felt just like a bunch of friends together chatting. Nobody seemed uncomfortable and it seemed like a lovely evening. Also, I didn't actually sit there the entire time thinking "OMG, I'm in a dress with people around eeeek!" Actually, other than my feet getting a bit sore, I didn't totally focus on the fact that I was a dress. That being said, I LOVED being in a dress and heels and painted. LOVED it.

I've got to sign off now b/c I've got work to do but I will try to blog more about this

One final note is just how special these ladies really are to me. I feel truly lucky to have met these amazing ladies and for them to accept me is beyond my wildest dreams.