So, in all my excitement about my big event 2 weeks ago, I have not mentioned the other developments in my life. I will try to recall them but I often forget a few and then have to blog again to mention those...so let's see here...
Well, the first one and the one that is actually proving to be really a ton of fun is the office I work at. As has been previously mentioned, I have a wonderful colleague who is completely unperturbed by my dressing. Honestly, she couldn't care less. She loves fashion and make-up as well, which makes her lots of fun. Anyway, I'm sure I've mentioned that she has set up times for me to dress up and help but if not...that is what I get to do. It has been wonderful to get all dressed and then be an assistant. It really appeals to the pleaser in me and the more I do it, the more I love it. So, I get to do filing and stuff like that while in dress, heels, hose, bra and, on the odd occasion, makeup! So much fun and totally appeals to my femmy-wanna-be side. Doing it reminds me of when I first got all dressed and did the maid work at my house...it just feels natural/right for me. The super cool thing about my colleague is she LOVES the helps so it is a win-win! Also, she recently has told 2 of her friends that 3 people work at the office with her. The boy me, her and her assistant, Vanessa (the girl me). In fact she said that there is a "girl who comes in to do the filing." That is so incredibly way hot for me. For her to do that without any prompting is just so fantastic. Oh and the reason I'm not her maid is that she currently lives in a basement suite. We were talking about what she would use me for as her maid and she said completely honestly that she would be having me serving champagne and appys for her guests. I told her I didn't believe it but she said that she has really cool friends.
I learned a valuable lesson with the SO being away and me having a tiny bit of time to do some dressing up. I have the one fabulous lady who lives 45 minutes away and she is so great about trying to get me dressed and over to her place for some cleaning. The issue with this situation is that I really do want to be her maid and I'm a big pleaser so, when she asks me if I could come over, I want to say yes or, at least, maybe. When the short amount of time that I had came open, I really did want to try to find a way to her place to do a tidy but it just became unworkable with my job and time limits. When I let her down, it was horrible for me, I hate disappointing people and especially someone as fantastic as her. What I learned from all of this is to make NO commitment unless completely certain I can do it. It pains me to say that I doubt I'll be available but this is much better than the letting down that I did.
I had another learning experience but not all together positive. There is a lady that I used to adore and I mean totally LOVE as a friend. She went through an affair with a married guy and even though the word was already out about it for months, I spoke to another woman about it and this, evidently, confirmed it. So, I betrayed her and it really was totally wrong of me to do that. I learned a valuable lesson from that as the cost was a really special friendship. After several months, I was able to reconnect with her but it is nothing like it once was. Anyway, she knows about Vanessa and I told her about the event. All that she did was make me feel guilty, like I was betraying my SO b/c she didn't know about the event. I assure you, the SO would not want to know anything about the event. So, after that discussion, I realized that I no longer want this woman in my world. I won't bother trying to chat with her on fb or seek her out if she is around.
So, what is on the horizon? Well, I've got a 4 week vacation coming up and won't be able to dress for the entire time...ug! But, I will be able to shop, yippeee!. Once the summer is over, the maid thing is either going to happen for the SO or...I'm going to do it elsewhere. And this is 100% full-on. I plan on continuing with my office assistant stuff and working to make it more official...having a scheduled time a couple of times a month might help. As always, I'll keep wearing nylons and panties under my work stuff and put on dresses when i can. I won't get into Vancouver in the next while b/c there are a bunch of events that bring several hundred thousand not open-minded people into the city. May get out to pride...maybe. I don't suspect I'll be getting together with the ladies again soon as they are all busy. Madonna concert maybe...my one darling friend that I wanted to come with me can't go because of a school commitment.
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