So...I'd love to tell everyone that I've found a woman who needed housekeeping, asked if I knew anyone who could help and then said that she'd prefer it if it was a man dressed in full maid outfit. That would be a dream come true for me. Well, it hasn't happened and my pursuit of this opportunity has not ceased. My work colleague is divorcing and so, I may actually get to be her maid. She would be awesome because she is full-on "pamper me" and doesn't give a care about me being dressed up at all. She's good and demanding too. The trouble is that she is moving into a basement suite for the immediate time being and that will not work with the upstairs tenants. I do think that this is my most likely chance to get to live out my dream. It is the most real and as a consequence, I can't wait for her to get on with the moving!
For me, to be a maid for someone is my dream but they've got to want me to be. The don't have to be super bossy or aggressive about it but I need to know that they are pleased by me doing this. And if they progress to expecting it or taking it for granted, then all the better. Because I am so overly scarred by the way I have seen people react to cross-dressing, I want me being dressed up to be wanted and good and then progress to how I am. I want my girlfriends to see me as Vanessa and not the facade I put on every day so that I can not be the victim of prejudice and scorn. I want them to be disappointed if I'm not pursuing my fem side in some way like hosiery or whatever. I would love it is any of my gfs would be bossy enough to tell me that I HAVE to wear hose, even on days when they won't see me and to follow-up on this. The problem is that most of the ladies are so kind they won't be that bossy or they are so busy that they don't have time to follow-up on this. I just wish I could find a few that were motivated to pursue this.
Now it is fair to wonder if it is right for me to ask this of my friends...I think the answer is no and I would be lying if I said that this is a requirement of my friendship. The only thing I need is a person who is cool and be cool with me being Vanessa. That in itself makes that woman so special and precious already. I am only talking about what I would love to get out of my friends. Now, to be honest and fair, I would be more than happy to do this for any female friends I have. If they wanted me to speak of certain topics or push them in a certain manner, I'd do it in a heartbeat
Also, it should be noted that on the occasion, my gfs will spontaneously say something like this and I can't tell you how much it means to me. I don't think I mentioned that I got 2 gifts recently. One from a lovely lady who needed favour for her sister. I did it and she gave me some hose and eyelashes. She really is special to me and unfortunately, she has recently gotten married which means she is gone to me. Too bad b/c her and I were like best friends right away. Anyway, I am happy for her...just sad that I've lost her. The other one is really special. It is the lady who has 3 kids, cat and dog at her place and so I can't be her maid b/c of that. Also, her and I went dancing last October and it was amazing. Anyway, she bought me some eyeshadow that she thought would be great on me. She said that she saw it and thought of me. Then when I said it would be a while before she would get to see me in it...she was disappointed and said so. So, how cool is she. I love her friendship.
The SO and crossdressing is pretty much dead. No comments or responses or feedback whenever I attempt to bring it up. Frankly, I've sort of given up and moved on with my dressing up hopes.
Other updates
A gf that I LOVE is in roller derby and I was thinking that a roller derby event might be a good thing to go to in drag. When I spoke with her about it she was in favour but did express concern about the dudes in the beer garden. We'll see on this.
A gf that I haven't seen in over 8 years is coming to the city nearby. She wants to go out with me as Vanessa and I think this will happen...She is so cool and man, would I love to be in the same city as her...special connection there.
I bought 6 wigs from a lady on fb, a new corset (cheap and I haven't tried it yet) online, and 4 pairs of shoes while away in the US.
The lady who manages the beauty supply place mentioned that her assistant manager was opening a shop and may need someone. She hasn't asked her boss about me being her stockgirl yet. Also, she showed me photos of her employee and he was fully in drag! Still doubt this opportunity due to the restrictive "must be available for all shifts" nature of this job but I still have great fantasies about it.
the housekeeping at the big building is dead...just too impossible to keep it quiet. the housekeeping at my office is still complicated by the fact that our current cleaner would spy on whoever replaced them.
there are 2 other ladies I could be a maid for out there right now as potentials. One of them is really cool and has been out with me in drag once before. She was the first person ever to see me in drag that knew me from where I work. She is super cool and might actually dig having maid. Just mentioned it (again) today so we'll see. Then there is my other girl, who may also be divorcing...just not sure she'd dig it. Funny but the 2 of them have the same 1st name.
I think the key thing for me right now is to get painted...but in the meantime, I'm going to keep pursuing the dream of working as Vanessa.
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