So, I'm in the mood to blog b/c this seems to be my only outlet right now....oh boohoo for me...lol.
So, no new news on the housekeeping although a very dear fb friend has reminded me that I should consider doing the housekeeping at my office as I mentioned a while back. I had sort of dropped that b/c of the weekly requirement but, in light of recent circumstances, I think I might re-evaluate this option. Problems with it are, weekly obligation, firing the current cleaner (who still would be doing other offices nearby), figuring out a reason why to tell the co-worker. The last one is funny b/c it was my co-worker who suggested it but my SO doesn't know she knows I dress, so I actually need to figure a lie that I don't need to tell...sillyness. Anyways, I'm going to put this one back up into consideration.
Another curious one is sort of there but not. There is a lady I have worked with who manages a beauty supply store. She doesn't totally seem into tranny stuff, that is, when I've been able to bring the topic up she isn't super into it. Not that she is down on it or against it for religious reasons, but just doesn't seem like her cup of tea. Anyway, about a year or so ago, I told her that I would LOVE to work at her store. Like so many people, she just thought it was kind of nice but crazy that someone as well-paid and in such a respected profession would want to work at a beauty supply store for not much money. Over time, I was able to convince her that it would be cool for me b/c I made it clear that I love make-up and stuff like that and, in my job, I don't get any opportunity to enjoy these topics much. She loves make-up as well, so she understands the mentality and began to believe that I was serious about my job curiosity. She mentioned they had rules about clothes and you had to wear black or white. I said that would be no issue for me. But then she informed me that, to work for her company, one must be available for any shift. Boom...so it ends...I was pretty sad and she was remarkably nice about it. I told her I had picked out some really cute outfits. Again, to emphasize, I never tell that I would wear a dress or anything directly. I always use terms like smart-looking and cute but never specifics. Anyway, after the bad news, I still kept mentioning how sad I was to not be her employee and how good I would be. I had said that, being a stock-person would be perfect but she said that all employees do all aspects of the job...again, this would be a bit complicated as well. Anyway, it sort of became less discussed, although she did make a point of mentioning that another store had hired a male and that he had dressed as a woman for the christmas photo. Anyway, I saw her recently and she mentioned that she had hired a boy. He is openly gay and effeminate. So then I got back into the topic and how bummed I was. She mentioned that she would love to hire me but the limit of the shift availability and also that she said she would feel weird telling me what to do. Also she said she'd be bugging me for my professional advice all the time. I told her that, if she hired me and I was allowed to have this opportunity to have cool co-workers who accepted me (again not saying what I'm being accepted for), then I would be so appreciative, that I would gladly offer free advice. Also, I said that I am a very obedient employee and would do what I'm told. So, then I said, she should ask her regional manager if they could hire a person to do the stock as it comes in on Thurs and I said I could go early friday to get it all done. She said that she was going to see if the company would allow this. Anyway, it was fun. I suspect this won't happen. One great thing is, this store is quite far from where I live and work so that would mean I would be safe from bumping into someone I know. The likelihood is next to zero but it makes for great fantasy...I start and dress conservatively but progressively get more feminine....pants and top to more feminine/longer top, to more legging like pants with a more tunic-like top, to leggings with longer top, then either skirt or top that is actually a dress, then tights, then nylons. Seems so easy, lol. Along the way, I'd have to progress with footwear, regular shoes, feminine styled male shoes, more male style female shoes, then heels! Or, boots...more masculine, to more feminine, to above knee or with a heel. And, of course, make-up. My dream scenario would be the ladies there saying that I "might as well," since I'm working in that industry and then progressing to more and more feminine looks. Anyway, that would be my dream.
I also am really frustrated that one of my absolute fave ladies would love to have me as a maid but it's the boyfriend/child at home issue again. This lady is, well, about as cool a person as I have met. The only downer about our dynamic is that she has a submissive thing going on as well. If I was not involved, her and I could really have had some fun exploring her interests b/c I definitely would enjoy exploring that side of me as well. But we are both taken and that is cool. Anyway, she is one of the few people I know that I truly believe, thinks it is good that I dress up. I know she would be totally great with me as her maid but I am quite worried about a boyfriend coming home or a neighbor seeing me and it causing some trouble. The interesting thing about her is that she has a true potential to really bring out Vanessa. Unlike so many other gfs, she clearly gets me. She just understands how much this all matters to me and, as such, is willing to be supportive about it, even on topics that might be pushing it. I think she would be totally into it if I came out fully. Our worlds don't cross quite enough as we both are pretty busy outside of our work.
Funny but this little blog has got me thinking about the ladies I've told and why I haven't been able to hang out with them.
So...there is my work friend...married and not cool hubby
my cool friend just mentioned...boyfriend and toddler...too busy
my cool friend who just got married...obvious
my cool friend who is super cool and has an awesome style..uncool hubby and kiddie
my cool fb friend... new baby, crazy bf.
cool work friend...3 kids plus dog and cat at home
cool work friend...2 kids plus new beau
cool sincity girl 1 and 2....married, 1 pregnant, 2, busy mommy plus hubbies
friend that I befriended on fb after she demanded it....supremely busy
Ouch...well, there you go, I clearly need to get to know some less busy people...but how!!!! and where are they?
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