So, I have been spending a bit of time on tumblr of late and it is an interesting experience. I initially signed up b/c I was searching for images of women with strapons on. I did a search of strapons and saw that tumblr had a bunch of really cool photos and signed up. This actually creates more discussion, doesn't it? For instance, why on earth was I searching strapon photos...Well, it's L's fault. You see, L is one of my greatest loves. We met years and years ago and I was involved. It was one of those situations where one of us was always with another partner and so the timing just never worked out. We both have found wonderful partners but both know that we could have been very happy together. Anyway, back to the strapon thing...at some point in our friendship, I came out to her...actually I told her where I studied. I used to go to a very remote library and hide in a very hidden spot and then put on my stuff and study in skirt and tights etc. So, one time she showed up with me in a skirt and tights and cute shoes. She was cool with it. As our friendship became more open, she confessed that she would LOVE to do a boy wearing a strapon. I had never ever considered it and thought the idea of being screwed seemed a bit like gay sex. Prior to moving away from her, I did tease her about it a few times and in light of the fact that I am a pretty giving kind of partner, I would have let her do it if we were a couple. Years went by and I started to re-evaluate my opinion on women and strapons. I think it appeals to me for a few reasons. One reason is the fact that the "top" or "screwer" in the dynamic is invariably in a position of dominance/authority. Being dominated by a woman is a tantalizing notion to me but also having a woman assume a dominant role is very exciting to me. I don't know if I have emphasized it enough previously but transformation is something I really dig. Taking a person and helping them to find something in them and having them express it...so hot...ties into me...start out as regular dude, end up maid...etc. So, anyway, I have come to the conclusion, I love photos of women with strapons on but what has been interesting about tumblr is it shows you such a wide variety of photos, you start to understand what aspects of photos you like and what aspects you don't like. For me, I like strapon photos where the women are in a casual pose, like they are used to wearing the strapon or in a pose like they are embracing the "having a dick" pose...gripping it. I love it if the women are in nylons or stocking and a corset. I don't like it when the strapon is cartoonishly large...looks like an elephant's trunk. I don't like it when the strapon is being used on a male who looks like a male. I dig girl on girl strapon stuff a bit but like most lesbian stuff, it makes me feel like I would not be invited to that party and that tends to diminish the pleasure. I LOVE the few times you see a tranny that looks convincing and a dom-looking woman with a strapon...there are very few of these but those really are my fave. Trouble is, most of these are with trannies that are either ugly or look like dudes in a dress (leg hair - barf). There is another side of strapons that I have come to love...quite a good pun actually is the concept of what an insult to ones masculinity it could be and how they are the purview of women. Just like nylons, men never wear strapons, so to wear one is exceedingly feminizing. Also, there could be the element of not being man enough to please a woman without one.
so, that is just strapons...but searching through photos of strapons has really shown me that I really dislike any photos with men in them...
one set of photos that I like is any cute maid stuff. I have also learned I love "meme" with tranny themes. Again, the specifics are quite interesting. Some of the stuff I have realized. There is a bunch of relatively common stuff on these and I am really getting clearer on what I don't like. For instance, I really don't like when the submissive person is called names like "sissy faggot" and really anything that is mean. I also don't like any allusions to homosexuality for the submissive. While it is all too common to see this stuff on tumblr and around the web, I, and that is me and only my opinion, only find women attractive/arousing. Men are a turn-off, any reference to anything intimate with a man is a turn-off to me. Unfortunately, there is an enormous percent of stuff that ends up in this dynamic. The tranny stories that I search for often have portions of them that go that way and I just stop reading then. The meme's are disappointing as well. Another thing that I don't dig is any cock restraints....so much of the femdom stuff has this in it and it just is not my bag at all. I think it is great for those who have this as their deal and I understand the relevance but it just does zero for me.
One think I have known for years is that I am somewhat disgusted by anything that involves immediate family. I don't mean incest which is completely disgusting to me but even when a tranny story revolves around a mother feminizing their son...not only a turn-off but offensive to me. An aunt, stepmother...all fine but otherwise yuck. The list of things I find disgusting and inappropriate is large but I just keep this related to things that are common in tranny themed stuff.
Gotta say my fave fantasies are maid ones....Primarily a progressive one where I get the job and then the uniform progresses from t-shirt and shorts. The slow progression is the thrill. Ideally the uniform progression would be the mistresses wishes but I also think progressing slowly through my own way would be fun...making her more at ease in little steps. There are lots of options but an example of the steps would work like this...shorts and t-shirt...then an apron. At this point I'd like the arrangement to become a bit more "professional". The "how is it real" aspect which is VERY important to me is I know that I would have to be proven to be capable and likeable over a period of time before I could earn the trust/be wanted by my mistress. So, having hit that point, we can progress...so by becoming more professional, I would think a black t-shirt and black pants would be a starting point. This is a pretty standard housekeeper look currently. Plus an apron. The next step would be a yoga pant instead of boy pants. From this, probably move to a slightly longer t-shirt that was almost tunic length. Also, somewhere in the process, shoes need to be addressed. I would think that I would be barefoot or in socks for the first while. Usually the next step is either to leggings with the longer t-shirt. At this point it I like to think ballet flats would be the next step....so now I'm in a longer black top with leggings and ballet flats. Ideally, I would have been growing my hair along the way and so a ponytail and maybe a head scarf/head thing that maids wear. The transition into a dress is a tricky one. My most logical approach would be a weather-based reason...wearing nylons under leggings with the long black tunic "that must be hot dear, why don't you just get rid of the leggings and wear a longer top." Or, "I think this is more appropriate for the spring." and her having a black maid's dress for me to wear. That pretty much gets me to where I am thrilled. The next progression would be make-up and, oddly enough, that one is easy. The mistress, who loves having me as her maid, is planning on having people over or having some people around and feels that it would be simpler if I was made up as well. That way it isn't a boy in a maid uniform but just looks like a maid. Sigh....I have lived this fantasy over a million times and thrown in all kinds of variations on the theme. Ultimately, this is probably my most enduring fantasy...
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