star-crossed

Hi folks! I'm thrilled you are reading this. So the weather is horrendous and I have a little time b/c most people are snowed in. I'm at work but no-one else is and so I'm in the cutest little knit, black, short-sleeved, too short dress with black tights and my grey heels that I LOVE. No paint b/c I don't have quite enough time. Still, I love this outfit!!!

So, there are many ways I feel that higher powers have always conspired against me dressing up. First of all, I'm not 5'6" with delicate feminine features. Now, I'm also not 6'4" and square jawed so, I'm not totally hooped. I doubt that I could pass b/c of my size though...a little too solid for a female physique. Alas, I do okay on dark nights and rainy weather. Another way I've been cursed is my cautious nature...always careful not to get caught or risk getting caught and outed. Plus, if I was gay...I'd probably be a queen and then all my dressing wouldn't matter all that much. But...if you have been reading recent posts, you will see that I've been stuck in the closet for a couple of months. Nothing gets me more motivated than this. So, I was dead set on going to Sincity this Sat. night. Even though I had to be up at 6 am on Sunday, I was full on in....couldn't wait! and then the gods decided to have a laugh. It snowed a bunch on Friday night to Saturday morning, then it warmed up just enough to create lots of moisture on the streets and then it froze again on Saturday. Now, Sincity is a 60 mile drive both ways (and worth every inch) but I don't think I could have even gotten out of my driveway without sliding off the road. Snowbound (not the fun kind of bound) to say the least.

And get this...I may actually get out to the Taboo sex show in Vancouver this week but the weather is calling for more snow and freezing rain! Like c'mon! This would be a big step for me but I'm really ready...I think it would be safe and I don't suspect anyone would recognize me anyway. But what to wear?

I'm still focused on the maid thing....gotta make it happen. I think the SO may be left out of this b/c her ignoring it completely destroys my desire to serve her. Who wants to please someone who completely rejects their great joys? Not I. Alas, I'll keep hoping but I'm looking at a few other girls that I know from work. The trouble with me doing their maid work is...either their hubbys/boyfriends or kids. I don't want a partner showing up and getting all crazy. Also, I won't be dressed in front of kids...just seems totally wrong to expose a immature mind to something so confusing.