Hey people! I'm doing this blog for 2 reasons, 1 is to allow me to vent a little, and two is to get some interaction on tranny life.
So first of all, I'm going to give a bit of background on me. I'm a tranny...been one for as long as I can recall. I have memories of wanting to dress up for as long as my memories go back. I've been in the closet, to some extent, most of my life. By this, I mean that I've never been 100% open about my dressing up, ever. I am not a transexual. I have no desire to be a woman and don't think that I'm a woman in a man's body. My love of dressing up is powerful and dominates my conscious thoughts.
My tranny history is the relatively classic for an "in-closet" tranny except I have tried to open doors throughout my life several times. So, I've told lots of people in an effort to try to find people willing to encourage/accept my dressing but it has not gone well that often. There are two main themes that have dominated my failure to dress up as much as I would like. The first theme is that I am a pleaser and, as a consequence, I inevitably put others feelings ahead of my own, which means, I have never been inclined to make someone "put up" with my dressing up if there was any chance they might be uncomfy with it. Also, I have pursued a world that is almost the least tranny friendly. I have always had girlfriends/partners that are unaccepting and turned-off by my dressing up and my career is very traditional and conservative. Why would I date a woman that doesn't dig my dressing up? C'mon now, try to find a woman that digs their boy in nylons and is attracted to you and is attractive to you and you'll know what I mean. I do a lot of research on the topic of women and dating trannies b/c my career allows me to meet tons of people and get to know them rather well. As a consequence I usually fish around to whether a woman would date a tranny and the answer is almost uniformly NO! So, I have met some amazing women who made my life wonderful and gotten serious with them, and had to deal with the crossdressing variable. And this is one of the main reasons I'm so pent up about dressing.
I'm going to get back to work...erg another problem with my dressing is that I'm so damn busy with my career that I don't have much time to get done up...but ironically, it does afford me the opportunity to buy whatever I want...so I can shop but I just can't get dressed.
I'll continue this thread soon as I feel a strong need to express my angst
